talking.

I know that recently i haven't been the guy who i used to be, and i am sorry. Like i said before, your the best thing in my life and i would never wanna lose you. When the i heard words " we need a break ", i really freaked out. And i know why, i was scared that i would lose touch with you over that period of time. But i was being irrational and selfish for only thinking how this would affect us and how i would lose you when i should have been thinking about how this would be affecting the people in the relationship, you. And my emotions and ego got the best of me and i couldn't control myself. But i realize that this break or space between us, isn't about how i should be thinking about what i should have done but what i should be doing. I don't talk much around you, i just find myself controlling myself over-excessively around you almost every time and trying not to screw up. Its not you, your awesome. No, make that awesome'st person ever (: Its me trying too hard, please don't doubt yourself about how you made me feel cause you hasn't been your fault for making me not talk. Its been mine. I can only hope that you can forgive me for those mistakes as i promise not to make them ever again. And from now on i wont be obsessing over the past from now on. I want to focus on the thing that matters the most to me, you (:

Would you give me chance, to be your friend. No, best friend cause i dont ever want to be around you and not be doing anything with you. And if you dont mind helping me with a thing called talking (: